Well the exercise programme and diet I talked about before is not going well. I just don't seem to be able to stop eating. I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm always hungry and all I'm eating is biscuits, crisps, chocolate, toast, cake................
I've not been exercising, I did it for a few days, then the depression came back. Other than dancing I've not been able to get off the sofa and jog,cycle or anything else. I don't think I can blame this on the depression, I'm not actually feeling too bad, work is going well, family is good. I feel quite good about my mental self, it's my physical self I don't like. It's like sabotage, one thing goes well so I have to scupper another, or at least that's what it feels like. I always have an excuse for eating too much, and then an excuse for not exercising.
I don't know how to get out of this cycle. Well in theory I do, stop eating and get off my arse, but I'm not doing it. I have done it in the past, I don't know what was different then, but I need to get back to that place, so I can start to like my body again.
I was once asked how much I like my body out of 10, I gave it a 3, I have to try and at least get over 5.